DarDar& me turn 1 year old today!!!!!!!!! =D

okiee.... that's all i'm blogging about.
Everything else is CONFIDENTIAL. ^.^

doodling @....11:23 PM

Feeling very down.. very lost... this few days.
=`(

I did not apply for NUS and NTU... daddy was really mad, shouting and scolding me few days ago.. even when dardar was around with me at home.

Why can't he understands that i can't possibly get in?
That i HATE what i'm studying right now??!!

All throught my study life, i've been pressurized to study what i hate.

In secondary school.. i wanted literature but my school did not offer. I intended to change school.. was thinking of Hai Sing Catholic, but that won't give me a chance to do pure sciences (which my parents wanted me to go into), and was offered to me in my current school.

I wanted to do arts but that was only offered in the last few classes. So obviously my parents and form teacher encourage me to do pure sciences... so i got in and...
I SPENT MY SEC 3 AND SEC 4 YEARS IN HELL.

So.. after sec 4 graduation... i didn't tell my parents that i can apply for junior college... knowing that they will encourage me to.
I applied for TP, and was really glad i got into polytechnic.

Next trouble... the courses..

I wanted to go interior design.. but my hope was crashed, for my relatives and parents were strongly against it. >.<
Then i wanted to do mass communication and media management..., but my english got a B3 instead of the required A grade..
God.. i was devastated...

So my parents once again commended that since i studied pure sciences and can get into biomed/biotech, why not.
There are people who wanted to get in also cannot, i was qualified for it, so i should study that. Furthermore the future for this industry looks bright.

Looking back, i wish i can scream back 'THAT'S ALL BULLSHIT'
God... i so hate my life right now..
Knowing dardar is my only console in my poly life. I keep telling myself, if i have not study this course, i might never have known dardar.

For once.. i really wanted to do something i want, and i like.
Dad keep telling me, 'WHERE GOT PEOPLE LOVE THEIR JOB ONE. LIKE IT OR NOT, PEOPLE STILL MUST WORK. IF U WORK AND EARN LESS MONEY, ALSO USELESS'

I absolutely HATE that sentence. I believe that one should work what one likes.
I really can't imagine going to work everyday with dread.
I told him, i want to work first then go back study. But he insist that once i work, i won't want to study anymore. argh~!!

Right now i'm so lost what to do.
It's all to late now to change what i'm studying...
I can't study business to start entrepuneurship.... animation for games.... I'm stuck with goddamn sciences. ARGH!

My parents don't even want to talk much to me anymore. They probably think i'm useless, 'mei you chu xi'

....

Gawd...
Can someone enlighten me, i'm so lost now...

....

=`(

doodling @....6:35 PM

HaPPy Va|enTin3 DaY!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Dardar came to pick me up from work and present me with......


mY sUnFlOwEr!!!!!!!!! 

Isn't it so pretty!!! =D

I know what ya are wondering.
"why not roses??"
Coz... roses are sooooooo boring!!!!!!!

I ask for sunflower and dar really got me one!!! =D
Make me feel so special.. haa...

Anyway, i bake dardar chocolate cake and chocolate chip cookies!
I know dardar put up the pictures in his blog and they don't look exactly tempting..
But hey, don't judge by its looks, it's yummy oki..
At least i think so.. =x

We had dinner at The Rice Table at suntec city...
We made reservation 1 week ago.. lucky sia.. coz they resturant fully reserved.
It's a buffet and we were presented with 20 indonesian dishes...
Whichever dishes we like we can ask for more. haa...
It's a buffet after all... =)

We really stuff ourselves to the brim!!
Strongly recommended restaurant orh!
By dardar & me. =D

doodling @....10:59 PM

hmm.. Tiring day.
Work was fun today, chatting with my colleague name Alpha. Hahaa...
He's waiting for 'o' level result, working as a part-timer. Yet his pay is more than double of what i'm currently getting, and he don't even need 3 yrs of poly studies, what the hell sia...
Can someone please do me some justice here. >.<

After that, dar came to fetch me. We went to HarbourFront for lunch and go arcade!!
hehee.. we mark down our names in the games there, first winner! HA!! So fun!!

Following that, we went to Tampines to buy yu sheng. Suppose to have pot luck at dar's house with his group of friends. Then we met Amanda and her sister.
Anyway, the yu sheng from sakae look damn nice sia.. go to dar's blog and see lor. hee...
We were so surprise.

Arrived at dar's house at 5pm. Weiloon arrived earliest. Then dar, his bro and me play card games. After a while, all the rest arrived. Hmm... we ordered canadian pizza, got a bit of confusion and mix up.

Dar's house was so 're nao', blackjack, floor mahjong, daidee, pairs... we play so many... haa...

Then came the grand finale.. dar's group of friends bought him a birthday cake. It's nice la... but don't know why... i feel guilty at the same time..
>.<

doodling @....12:52 AM